You also know where this came from...

[x] You know someone that cares about you.
[x] You have a bf/ gf/ fiancee/ husband/ wife.
[ ] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You get good grades.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x]You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
[x] You live in a house.
T O T A L: 7

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a wk.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.
T O T A L: 9

[ ] You have over 100 friends on friendster.
[ ] You have pictures on friendster.
[x] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[ ] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[x] You look foward to go to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
[x] You shower daily.
T O T A L: 6

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You're healthy.
[x] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[x] You have so many inside jokes with friends.
[x] You know your parents care and love you.
T O T A L: 5

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life.
[x] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You don't have many enemies.
[x] You are happy you're living.
T O T A L: 10

GRAND TOTAL : 37

Now count up the number and multiply by 2.Then repost saying " My life is **% perfect.

"My life is 74% perfect".

Hah, quite nonsensical arh. My life is far from perfect right now. I screwed up my mid-year exams la can. On a brighter note, tomorrow is my last paper!! HAHAHA. Liberation!! And there's no school on Friday because there's GSC Paper and I don't take GSC. YAYYY... Okay, I need sleep. Econs and Biology paper blew my brain to bits today. I need rest. Then must study for Chinese!! HAHAHA. -.-

You know where this came from... Hahaha.

five random facts about me.
1. I am a girl.
2. I play the violin and piano.
3. I'm in the Chinese Orchestra (playing the gaohu and erhu)
4. Physics is an unfamthomable subject to me.
5. I love reading novels.

five things that scares me.
1. Rejection
2. Failure
3. Unacceptance
4. Creepy crawlies
5. Going to hell instead of heaven

five random music at the moment.
1. Forest Gump Suite
2. Double Violin Concerto
3. Mozart's The Mirror
4. The piece being played on the VCH website
5. Phantom of the Opera

five things i say the most.
1. Haha
2. Lol
3. Siao
4. Shit
5. Omg

five people to do this.
1. Aiya, whoever who wants to do, just do it. :)
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3.
4.
5.

Today marks the beginning of a series of upsetting evilness: Mid-Year Examinations. We had the Chemistry Paper today and I was sooo slaughtered by it my brain now feels like scrambled eggs and toufu combined together (Ew). Math Paper is tomorrow. Tell me why I'm not gonna be anticipating it. No, seriously, I don't like Math. Summation Notation is driving me up the wall and what in the world is Recurrance Relations? So there you are: I am sooo dead.

Back to summation notation now. Ciao.

A not-so-little something I koped from Marcus's blog. Hahaha.

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? - Car accident.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? - Paint.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE? - A cellphone.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? - Pretty much anything that appeals to me.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? - I don't recall so.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? - Good grades for promos and A' levels.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? - A simple life with no worries, no troubles and no sorrows.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION/S? - Grey's Anatomy DVD, my violin, my piano and my laptop.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? - No, not unless you get me to crawl into a tunnel the width of my shoulders.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? - No, not unless I think of stuff that scares me.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? - A sad movie actually. Not a person.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME? - Don't wear them.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? - Doesn't matter. Unless it's something out of the world.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO? - Gee, I don't know.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? - Energy drink.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? - Pineapples!!

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? - Potato chips.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? - Um, Chuan?

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU? - My parents gave me the gift of life.

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY? - Yes.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? - What is that?

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? - None. I go for garments that are comfortable.

25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR? - Something sleek, powerful and sporty.

26.DO YOU HAVE A BONER RIGHT NOW? - What on earth is a 'boner'?

27. HOW BIG IS YOUR BONER? - If I don't know what's a boner then I most certainly don't know how big is a boner.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? - It depends.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? - See what the situation deems fit.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED - 5

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? - No particular preference.

32. WHAT IS ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? - CL's cell phone.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? - Injustice, really.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA? - I don't live in the US, but yes I have been to L.A.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? - Short-tempered and laziness.

37. FIRST JOB? - I'm studying full-time.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? - Once, to my best friend, on April Fool's Day.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS? - Eating ice cream.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE? - Nothing. I'm happy with the way I am.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY? - For fun, peace, laughter and joy.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? - I don't know.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL? - No harm done. I'm not an alcoholic nut.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO U WANT? - I don't know. Maybe 2.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? - I don't think so.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? - Nope.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE? - Ring finger.

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? - A few days ago?

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? - I'm fine with it.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? - Chicken. But a steak would be heavenly.

52. ANY BAD HABITS? - An uncontrollable and insuppressible urge to shake my legs.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF? - Most of my CDs are either classical, instrumental or opera. I don't think there's anything embarrassing about them.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? - Of course. Haha. Ego. =P

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? - I don't swear.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER? - Not really. My unhealthy obsession with the Phantom of the Opera is a fine example of that. =D

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? - That depends on how angry I am.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? - My maternal grandparents' place.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY? - Too much and too easily sometimes.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? - A rock-hard plastic dinosaur.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? - How should I interpret this question? Number of contacts or literally, numbers?

62. DO YOU USE SARCASM? - Oh, loads of it, with a dash of pepper and a pinch of salt.

63. EVER BEEN ARRESTED? - No, I'm a good kid. :)

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? - What on earth is a mosh pit?

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? - Personality.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? - Val, lirin, short stuff, kid, pancake... Whatever, you name it.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? - No, I'm a lazy person.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? - Definitely, chocolate.

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS? - Blue and silver.

73. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW? - CL and a good old novel.

74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE? - Four, but they're all still in the gums. Anyone have more than 4?

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? - It's up to them.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? - Little kids playing and splashing around in the pool.

77. LAST THING YOU ATE? - Chocolate ice cream

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? - Dad

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? - General appearance.

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG? - It depends on my mood.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE? - Hahaha. Exams.

82. FAVORITE DRINK(S)? - None in particular. Must depend on my mood. Haha.

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN - Cancer, cos it's my zodiac sign. Hahaha.

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT? - Cycling.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? - Black.

86. EYE COLOR? - Brown.

87. Do you wear glasses? - Yeah.

88. SIBLINGS? - Two younger sisters.

89. FAVORITE MONTH? - December.

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI? - Love 'em.

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED? - Grey's Anatomy

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? - Valentine's Day, my Birthday and Christmas Day.

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? - Perhaps.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER? - Definitely winter.

95. KISSES OR HUGS? - Haha, both?

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? - Relationships, definitely.

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? - Curry puff

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? - I don't know.

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? - The Medicine of ER

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU? - Well... That's for me to know and you to find out.

Your heart beat accelerates. You break out in cold sweat. You tense up and imagine. Your heart is beating wildly. You await what happens next with much trepidation.

That, my friends, is fear.

Just about two weeks ago, I crawled out of a car wreck, conscious and alert. I was bleeding, trembling and in shock, I know, but I knew what I had to do - call 995. I survived the whole incident, happy, alive and even thought that hospital stay was quite alright, despite getting my arm poked so many times with an IV needle. I wasn't severly traumatised. I don't get nightmares. I thought I was totally fine, happy-go-lucky, no problem. I guess I was kind of wrong.

My mum was wrecked with severe abdominal pain and backache today. For the second time this week. One type of painkiller's not working, get another. So my dad and I hopped into the car and went back to our house to get it. We're currently lodging at my Grandpa's condo cos the stairs back home made everything really inconvenient in our circumstances.

The drive back home was silent. It was close to midnight, even the roads were quiet. But this silence was punctuated with wrecking dry cough from my dad from time to time. I frowned. That's been going on for more than 2 weeks. And he sounded like he was gonna cough his lungs out.
"Quit smoking, dad."
"It's got nothing to do with smoking."
"Oh, it has everything to do with smoking, especially your lungs. You should read my Bio textbook."
Naturally, that was met with silence. That's just him. And he's seen the doctor twice. We got home, grabbed my mum's medicine and got back into the car.

On the drive back to the condo, yet again, there were bouts of dry wrecking cough. It got so bad, he had to wind down the window and cough. Fear then reached out with its clingy tentacles, and gripped me tightly. Flashes of images from the accident surfaced in my mind and I tightened my hold on the bags of medicine. He wasn't speeding, but he was driving fast. Or perhaps fear has clouded my judgement. I was so afraid. So afraid that in the midst of coughing, he would lose control of the car. I stoned in the front passenger seat as we maneuver through the thin traffic. My heart was palpitating with fear.

We finally reached the car park. My dad immediately got out of the car to cough. And it sounded like he was coughing his insides out. I got out of the car too, and slowly walked back to the apartment, waiting for my breathing to return to normal and my heart beat to slow down.

Both of them ought to get a proper medical check-up and save me from worrying my insides out. I need some sleep. It's frickin' 2.35am now. I have no idea what I'm doing awake at this unearthly hour. Get well soon, Mum, Dad and CL. Next time you get severe abdominal pain, you'd better go straight to the doctor. Or I'll have your hide.

Ciao people. Good night. Or rather, morning.

As of 26th May 2006 till today, I have consumed a total of 106 capsules of anti-biotics and 2 painkillers. Ugh.

The Violinist

He was drunk again. She knew it from the moment she heard the slam of the door and the heavy footsteps as he staggers unsteadily into the house. She remained silent in her room, waiting to see what he would do tonight.
"Victoria!"
She cringed at his loud roar and scrambled as quickly as she could to the living room.
"Yes, father?"
"What may I ask is this?" He sneered, holding up a stack of her music scores. An involuntary gasp escaped her lips as her eyes widened and realization sank in. She had been practicing her violin while her father was out drinking and had forgotten to keep her scores after she had lugged her violin case back into her room.
"I... I was practicing..." Victoria replied in a small voice, casting her eyes to the ground.
"Practising!" He roared, inches away from her faces. His breath reeked of alcohol. She flinched and almost took a step back.

Okay, some random stuff. The mood to write suddenly struck me and I just had to write something. I think I left about half my brain cells along in that crushed up car. I was leafing through my DNA and Genomics notes today. I tried to study. I tried to read. But. Nothing went into my head. I get so tired easily. I keep wanting to sleep. I don't feel good about my impending mid-years.

HELLO PEOPLE! I AM BACK!

Alright alright, I got out of the hospital already. Recuperating at home now. Missed my GP exam, missed an entire week's worth of make-up lectures and tutorials. I am feeling very screwed right now.

People, never get yourself into a car accident - it leaves you traumatised for days and I mean it. Thank God no one was killed. Really.

The accident gave me a humongous swollen right eye. Really, it looked wonderfully fantastic. On the first night, my eye looked like a purple green golf ball, I could barely open my eye. On the point of impact, I crashed forward and hit my head against the dashboard, crushing my oh-so-lovely spectacles. The right lens of my spectacles flew out and cut a neat hole in my head. Blood dripped down dramatically. Really. After calling 995, I actually crawled back into the front seat and flipped open the car mirror to check my wounds. LOL.

My right elbow bled a river of blood and it hurt so badly that I was numbed from the pain already. My knees. AHA. My left knee became swollen with another lovely shade of purple green. My right knee was bleeding another river of blood. Now it's all healed with a big ugly scab, but the muscles are so tight I can't bend my knee properly without feeling pain. And ta-dah -> you have a limping me.

Bruised my ribs as well, but that didn't bother me so much. I got hospitalised for 3 days, in which I went for X-rays after X-rays and scans after scans.

And you know, I got poked with so many needles I think I've more or less gotten over my fear of injections. They have to give me a saline IV drip. At first I was like "Must I put that...?" The doctor nodded. -_- Then... he couldn't find my bloody vein. He must have poked about almost 20 holes in my poor arm. First he poked about 10 holes at my wrist - in out in out in out. No veins located. He opened another new needle and moved on to the crook of my arm, the elbow there. And MAN, it hurt about 10 times more than it did at my wrist. But yeah, about almost another 10 times later he finally found the vein. And because the IV needle is at the crook of my arm, I cannot bend my left arm. You can just imagine how torturous that was.

Oh ya, they had to stitch up the hole in my head (cut by my wonderful specs lens). I totally freaked out when the doctor said they had to stitch. I balked like a little kid. The Operating Theatre is freezing cold. I was shaking like a leaf in the frigid wind on the operating bed. The lights from above glaring down sternly. Scaringly. I made some noise about the anaesthetic. They had to inject the anaesthetic right above my eye, slightly below and beside my eyebrow. I freaked out man. And I kept asking the doctor "Are you sure there aren't any kind of anaesthetic which can be consumed?" The doctor, a female, smiled and said "Nope". And after I made some more noise the doctor said "I'm already giving you the smallest needle." I gave a resigned sign and said "Alright."

But it was so funny. After she cleaned the wound (with some medicine that hurt so badly I wadded the bit of blanket clenched tightly in my hand into a small tight ball) then the doctor announced "I'm gonna inject." I freaked out again and actually moved my head off the pillow and stunned the doc. She was like "Eh! Why you move your head?" Then the nurse had to grab my head and hold it still while the doctor inject the anaesthetic. And she even asked, while injecting "Is it painful?" -_- Duh. Then the area around my wound became numb and she began stitching. 3 stitches. When I got a good look at myself in the mirror after the stitching, those black threads look like an extension of my eyebrow. Albeit an ugly extension.

So yeap, I was hospitalised for 3 days before I am discharged. I'm feeling much better now. My mum is recovering fast too, she has moved out of ICU and is in the normal ward now. Thank God :)

Thanks to everyone who had visited me in the hospital. Thanks to my CG, which flooded my ward on monday. LOL. Thanks to Marc, Em, Talz, Aiysha and Ahmad whom visited me and made me laugh. Special thanks to CL who really took great care of me during this period. Thanks everyone!